p/s: lately I frequently blog about my disappoinment. If you are sick of it, just leave me alone as I am not gonna impress anyone here.
Thursday, December 22, 2011
It's kinda hurt when people talking about you while you're sleeping and they didn't realise you heard it. I have experienced it many times. People don't understand me. They don't know how tired I felt as I have low metabolism. They were acting very2 nice in front of me. huh.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
It is a title from Keane's song. Yes, everybody is changing by time. What I want to stress here is that lately I am acting differently / pretending because of people around me and I hate it so much. It is like I am not being myself. Telling people I'm okay with this and that but in fact I'm not. I will then do what I absolutely want to, behind them. It is not like I am faking it, it feels more like I'm pushing myself through it. I am afraid if I hurt them. In the end, I am the one suffering. Is it the only option I have? *sobss
Saturday, December 10, 2011
After blogwalking to several blog like Aidid Muaddib and Kahuna, it emphasize my lacking at general knowledge. Yes, I already realised it that is why I said it EMPHASIZED.
Last two week I was also awaken by this reading issue when I can hardly answer the Pesticide Science test where I ended up camparing two similar nozzle. I bet those farmers know better than me T____T In my opinion, reading should come together with passion. (my mind is translating the Malay thoughts into English and it is really depressing ;( Last Thursday, my classmates and I attendted a MAPPS Seminar where the genius people presenting papers on Good Agricultural Practices. I was amazed by the way they presented the papers. It seems like they know everything. They can easily answer all question asked by participants.
Thus, I am now nurturing the reading habit by doing a lot of references for things I dont understand. As my supervisor said "google and google!" I have been wasting my time by surfing entertainment stuff. But dont simply believe all the information. Do some research, ask the experts. I hope I wont be as "hangat-hangat tahi ayam". Lets read, people!
p/s: I find it is very hard to express my thoughts in this entry.
p/s/s: Syadan must be laughing if he reads this post.
lately he likes to tease me, effect of my bad presentation.
no heart feeling ;)
p/s/ss: please correct my english if it is wrong :)